I feel for you ( and your family ) my friend and can relate to most of this, even though I‘ve never been to, let alone lived in, a really poor country. Can’t stand that Western mentality either. I never owned a car but am kind of frustrated how dependent that makes you on others. Can’t stand bureaucracy either. Etc etc
You’re doing great under the circumstances and I hope 2021 gets better and better for your family.
Big hug,
Vincent