I've always had tons of passion and a burning desire to express with words and sounds. I've always wanted to "make the world a better place". I've always wanted to connect with people and build something new, something that makes life easier on those of us who want to give naturally and those who do so best when we have not been made to fit in a box. There were two things that always got in my way though.
The first major blockage was a lack of confidence in myself and in the universe, this feeling that I required some skill or some experience that I did not yet hold in my arsenal and a fear that the world, not just it's people but the fabric of the universe, would not understand or accept me for who I really was. I frequently felt that no matter what I did, it would still amount to nothing, while simultaneously believe that there must be a way. The result was laziness and distraction. I could not decide if I wanted to focus on music or writing or connecting with people, creating or improving my skills, this skill or that skill, and so almost nothing got done. I was hopelessly craving love, never realizing that the only love I needed came from myself. I ran in a lot of circles. This went on for all of my teens and most of my twenties.
Second was that I wanted to "fix" what was "broken" with the world. I thought that all the suffering people out there would be better off if the world just CHANGED. I thought that this change required an outward push, and if that didn't work that it needed a stronger push, and that eventually something would have to give. I did not see it at the time, but this was utter escapism. I focused so much on trying to change the world, meanwhile settling on my own faults as just being "a part of me". This desire to change the world and "fix" what was "broken" was such an obsession that I never really learned to love creating for the sake of creating.
Eventually I discovered that change comes from within. You change yourself and the whole universe changes with you. The ways in which we are interconnected go beyond any attempt at comprehension. Life is a mirror. Fear leads to discord. Love leads to harmony. I've finally fallen in love with songwriting and story-writing for their own sake. I still want to connect with others, no longer out of a fear that "we're screwed", but out of a desire to make life more awesome.
I'm sharing my short stories and my songs, as they develop, pay-what-you-want (free to access) because I believe in the free flow of energy and I believe that others will see that my work is valuable. Even if they don't I'll feel satisfied in knowing that I was as me as I could possibly be, without a front. And who is this "me"?
I am life, expressing itself through a set of experiences and the illusion of separation.
I'd love it if you took the time to check out my work and share your feelings. If you feel passionate about the same things, say something and we can connect and brainstorm together about how to make this world more and more awesome, starting with ourselves.
Here is my latest song recording: Mirror (2019 demo)
Here is my latest story: "The Adventures of Helicopter Pee Man"
And here is my facebook page to connect with me at: I+Everything
Love,
I+Everything
