Give thanks for these words, I am truly honored to receive them.
In some ways, our attempted US immigration was seemingly the most rational path out of Suriname, but now that Cambodia is a bit more receptive to hosting me than my country is to hosting my Cambodian family. So, at this point, we honestly don't want to immigrate to the US anymore, but because we've already paid all the fees, we'd still like to pursue it just to have it an as option, or even just visit for two weeks.
Our case was denied for lots of reasons, mostly my lack of address in the USA and my lack of an income 125% of poverty for a family of 4. Of course when you've been stranded abroad for three years, you aren't exactly living above the American poverty level. Basically what the government wants me to do is abandon the family and put it in one or two years of manual labor at 60-70 hours a week, which would probably just barely put me above that poverty line.
The biggest problem is that is the life I was fleeing when I escaped to Cambodia in 2010, so it seems foolish to attempt the life again that has never ever worked for me. I can't blame you for being an anarchist, not sure if would technically be labeled one or not. I don't believe in a necessary overthrow of governments, but I'd at least like to have the right not to participate in their world, but that's impossible now that the world has already been divided like a pizza.
I'm already learning to keep my mouth shut about these issues, especially in southern Indiana. Someone made a comment about the Mexicans crossing the border "so easily," so why can't we, etc. I tried to explain the reason they cross illegally is because they would suffer my family's fate if they tried to do things the "right way" like I did. The conversation ended when I said " I wouldn't wish the US immigration process on my worst enemy."