The there there tenderness toward self only works after the beast is slightly back in her box. I've been musing on your comments all day. I don't wish to fight the beast at all - just to sooth and calm her. But she's like a wild animal when she's like this - it's like you're trying your best to calm her down and she's raising hooves and bucking and rearing and coming out all tooth and claw and you're cowering beneath her. And it's not until this storm is at least a little past that you can hope to sooth her at all. But, the fact I'm writing and talking shows she's at least part subdued for now - and I'm tenderly stroking around the edges of this, tenderly tenderly. xx