I do not like to engage myself with stuffs that are going to make me feel sad, and I wish it can be easy for me to stay happy in everyday of my life, although people will tell you that happiness is a choice, and you are free to keep it or not, I bet you that there are also time's you will stay on your own, and someone will still try to pissed you off
Many times, the people that does this, are those people very close to us, and some of their reasons are always for the fact that, you are not how they know you to be.
Then forgetting that, at that moment, it is exactly how you want to be, or relates to things in the environment.
My nephew is good at this, he will not let me have my time alone, and before I know it, he will come inside the room, with one thing or the other, trying to create a discussion from scratch.
I do not yelled at him, that is just the truth, but I will tell him to get something for me from his grandmother, knowing quite well that once he got there, he will not like to come find me again, and so, he will want to disturb his grandma.
But there was a time i yelled at somebody, and the reason was because, I know he is not a child, but he acted like a child, and want to spoiled my vibes, maybe, trying to take away my hip-hop and give me blues, when I was not in a position of enjoying that kind of vibes.
I was learning how to use corel draw in making designs, so, this guy came to my place, he is a friend, when he entered, he had seen me busying with the stuff, although he asked me that we should step out, and chill in a bar around the neighborhood.
I was in no thought to do a thing like that, my focus was to nailed the corel draw, and I was fully prepared for it that day.
I have been practicing it for quite sometimes now, so on that particular day, I decided that I must make out some beautiful designs, like two or three, and then, keep them close, so that whenever I looked at those design's, I will be reminded that it was me who did it, so, i will still perfectly do it again.
My guy was asleep, that was what I remembered before I leave the parlor, but when I came out of the room, I saw him on IMDB website, he was hovering the cursor on some movies, he will like us to watch. "oh! bro, I was in a middle of something, you shouldn't have taken it off?
I told him, and he was just after the movie, and has forgotten about what I was doing. The worst part of it was that, he close the application without saving the projects, and I was to start afresh. I felt bad up to a bigger extent, and I loose my temper, and i shouted at him, but i didn't like my mood afterwards, therefore, i regretted that I shouldn't have shout at my friend.
I mean, I can still do the designs again, and he is my friend, so, it was making no sense at all, I told him not to mind the way I raised my voice few minutes ago, but he should understand that i was out of gear, and it doesn't likely happens.
He answered that he understands me, and he was wrong too, for not taking time to look at the screen, if I was done with the stuff or not, yet, even with this words of understanding, i was not free through out that afternoon. Later on, towards 4:00 PM, i went to his area, and we hang out, atleast, that helps me free my conscience, and he felt it too that I was really sorry.