I didn’t want to left alone
I have done some habits which are not okay with you
But I always thought you look me in the eyes
And you see the path that I have created not behind
I thought you believe in me
I didn’t know you never want me
They all came as star’s blinking into my eyes
All these were the songs you sing not within me
Honestly you choose to leave me
That was the first day I felt sinking
I wasn’t in first grade but my head kept spinning
I had to control myself in the kitchen
Because it didn’t make sense again.
I force myself to understand that you left
I think of the speed in your drive that day
You just wanted to stay away from me
Even at this moment it is stil unclear to me
I still asked myself why you do those things
What was truly inside of it
If those messages was truly for me
Or if you were joking as I know you do sometimes
But you were not out of your mind
You were not joking at all
It was your thoughts you said.
I felt like someone push me to the floor
And I just managed to get up on the floor
It was also like an airplane that run in the sky
I don’t know what was actually the fault
But did I cause it?
You didn’t know how much I have trust in you
But you broke me into pieces
I have to picked myself up through some music’s
Even the trumpet I didn’t like
I just managed to blow it
My thoughts from that day are full of story’s
You never knew what you have done to me.
They hardly understand him, and it was just the same way that he hardly understand himself. Most times, he will convince himself that he feels nothing again for her, but on the other hand, it comes to his mind like the feelings are still fresh.
He doesn’t want to be confused, but at the same time, he hardly get the fuss out, so that it will never passed again any current to his heart.
The man in the poem promise himself, he will never love again, but he will love the person who break his heart.